If memory serves, it was a warm afternoon in the late summer of 1983. I was sitting on my couch minding my own business. Truthfully, I don't remember what it was I was doing because something happened then that has stuck with me all these years. It was one of those bolts out of the blue kinds of things - the ones where you have no idea where they came from. They simply decide to drop in an pay you a visit, whether you're ready or not. I had a vision. Now, I'm not usually given to this sort of thing - especially spontaneously and without some external provocation. It was as if everything else before my eyes had disappeared and the vision was all I could see.
I saw a girl and I took her to be a gypsy for the way she was dressed. She looked to be 14 or 15 years old. She had long dark hair that flew out behind her as she ran through the darkness of a dense forest past a tree. She looked scared - scared for her life. Behind her was a man that I took to be her father. He looked scared too, but I had the feeling he wasn't one that scared easily. The girl turned to look back to make sure he was behind her. He reached out silently and pushed her on with a gentle shove. Who or what was it they were running from, I wondered to myself. As if in answer to my question, a vision within the vision appeared - like a vignette. I saw men dressed like knights in armor. They were riding horses and carrying torches. The visors were up on their helmets as they picked their way through the trees, searching.
That was pretty much the extent of my vision, except for the one word that I heard from some disembodied voice. The word was "Albigensians". It didn't last very long really, but as I previously indicated it was somewhat akin to being hit by a bolt of lightning out of the blue for me.
I had no idea what the word meant, or what it was I'd just seen. Had there been an internet back then, I would have gone and looked it up, but there wasn't and I didn't. I was profoundly disturbed for the rest of the day, but life goes on and there were more important things to think about. I spoke of it to only a few people in the months that followed and then didn't think of it again for many years. I did remember it though, very clearly.
It wasn't until I did have access to the internet in late 1999 that it reared it's head again. Not right away. It was actually some years after that - rekindled by things people said to me and subjects that seemed to be related to my website that I was building. That was largely about fallen angels. In fact, I wrote a book about them called "Sons of Darkness ~ Sons of Light".
I started reading a lot of books that people recommended on these subjects. I read them and I learned from them, but it didn't really sink in exactly how it was related to that vision until perhaps 2004 or 2005, more than twenty years after the fact. I finally did learn what that word meant - Albigensians. It was about that time a new word got added. That word was "Merovingians". I was directed toward a website called "Dagobert's Revenge" otherwise known as "Ordo Lapsit Exilis" - the Order of the Stone that came down from Heaven. It referred to the stone that was said to have fallen from Lucifer's brow as he fell to earth.
The more I read, the more I really didn't quite know what to think about it all. When the Priory of Sion was declared to be a hoax perpetrated by one Pierre Plantard and company, that seemed to put a lid on the whole thing. It didn't go away, however. It was about that time Dan Brown came out with his book, "The DaVinci Code". I read the book. I saw the movie. I read a few more books and saw a few more movies too - but still, it didn't all gel for me. I watched Richard Stanley's documentary "Secret Glory" which is mostly about Otto Rahn, the reluctant Nazi, who was an anthropologist, mythographer and dreamer and his search for the Grail. I was profoundly touched by the story, because it's just one of those stories that does that to you - both Otto's and the story of the Cathars.
I think the reason it didn't gel was because I kept finding things I couldn't accept as fact due to some artful and strange manipulations of facts by these people writing these things. Laurence Gardner's "Genesis of the Grail Kings" left me wondering what sorts of drugs these people were taking - that and some of his dates absolutely contradicted his supposed sources. It all seemed a lot of wishful thinking and mythology attempting to look 'for real' like so much other 'new agey' stuff.
But all that changed, when I went back to an old bit I'd been pointed to early on in web-life about Abraham having come from India. So, I started looking at India again, virtually speaking. You can read and look at things many times over and each time they come with new revelations. I began to do research for "The Shining Ones" segment on my website. This time, I took a better look at the Mahabharata. I found that there were scholars who had a grip on translating the mysterious Harappan 'script' of the Indus Valley civilization. And then there were those strange Caucasian mummies who wore and wove plaids and silks, found in the Takla Makan dessert. There was another word that kept cropping up. That word was "Scythians". I became fascinated with them. Who were they and where did they come from? Things began to come together. Still, it took about a year and a half before they truly did.
What happened from there will be addressed in the next installment. Stay tuned and remember to smile, in spite of it all!
Wow! Beautiful blog
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